Wayward Still

I’ll be finished with massage school in less than two weeks and “what I’m doing after massage school” has yet to be revealed. Normally, for organized, responsible, rational Brooke this would present somewhat of a problem. And when I think about it too much, I do find myself feeling rather anxious about it all. The more I think about it, the more anxious I get in fact. I would, after all, like to return to independent living and get myself somewhat settled in my own space somewhere with some sense of purpose to my day, week, month, year. Unfortunately I still don’t know where I want to be or what sort of job I want to find, which makes planning challenging.

So I’m trying not to think about it too much. Particularly as I’m really enjoying where I am at the moment and what I’m doing. Massage school is fantastic and I’m getting to know some really great people. I’m meeting amazing clients – both through school and through my fledgling private practice – and making lovely friends. And I’m having lots of fun. My new year’s resolution to be more social snowballed a bit to the point where it has gotten a bit out of control. In the last few weeks I’ve been out almost every night and had great fun on the weekends. There have been concerts and dancing and walks and meals and hiking and Dodgeball and more! It got to the point where I was actually pretty exhausted and craving my quiet time again. So I took a few evenings to myself but didn’t drift back into anti-social land. The quiet time was followed by a great weekend with the new friend Chris and will be rounded out with dinner tonight at the neighbors’ and hopefully Brokeback Mountain with someone or other (I’m hoping for Celeste from school) early this week.

So, for now, the general plan is to be a massage therapist here until I figure out the next move. I’ll work with paying clients to stem the drain on my savings account and also with the domestic violence shelter so I have a bit more “purpose” to my weeks. And I’ve got a few secret projects going on and a few ideas for what comes next (maybe 4 months in Santa Fe, maybe a summer in Alaska) but stay tuned for more details!